This morning, I wanted to return to a time when I painted in watercolours...the Sunrise was a wash of lavenders, greys, blues and pinks...my fingers itched to put what I saw on paper.
I imagined the smooth glide of the Water and paint on a large brush, washing in the shades of greyish blues and pinky lavenders, on a smooth, unmarked sheet of paper...
I imagined how the Water I used to paint the loving message from Creator would flow directly to him...giving him my message for serenity and peace for the World in all its anguish at the present time.
This morning, while waiting for the Prime Minister to make his appearance in front of the Governor General's residence, I felt so very sad that Canada's government was in this divisive and confrontational position.
And at the same time, I felt the inevitability of it. Change is occurring at a rapid rate all over the World...Canada and its elected officials must change as well. The old guard, with their outdated power hungry ways, will fall.
And so, I imagined my paint brush, filled with the pinky-lavender hue, signalling my acceptance...sending gratitude to Creator for giving me the ability to stand and watch this fearsome and chilling change...history in the making...in front of which my country stands.
As my brush sends ripples of coloured love towards the new Day light...I send my prayer for a united front...a front in which all the diverse population of Canada stands as one.
As the light washes onto my imaginary paper, I see illumination and understanding entering the picture...a faint line, as yet, but there all the same.
Far off, just outlining the hills...
I go in and hear the Governor General has allowed the prorogation or suspension of Parliament. I see and feel the shock of the media and the people surrounding them...it feels as if the Country has suddenly declared it will no longer hear the voice of the people, with Parliament closed.
It is deeply disturbing, as it is meant to be...it takes a great deal to shock me out of complacency. It takes a great deal to wake me to what is really happening with the government of my country.
And I imagine I am not alone.
My painting has suddenly been obscured by a deep, dark cloud...
And yet, as an ongoing student of history, I find it infinitely fascinating, at this time in my life, to watch the eyes and body language of the politicians and spokespersons. To watch the auras and feel the energy...to really, really see.
Disinterest in government policies clouded my vision, for awhile. The scales only departed when the government's last financial report came down...
I watch as my paint brush struggles to contain the light rimming the hills on the horizon, fighting the deep dark Cloud which threatens to overwhelm, having already obscured the loving colours of Sun's rising.
I fight and lose. But it is only for a time...my painting can be begun anew, each Day. Each Sunrise.
With my eyes and mind wide open to new possibilities, I will take a new sheet of paper tomorrow, and fill it with hope.
Hope for a country in limbo.